Living With Alcoholic & drug addicted mother

I once told my husband after a death in our family that i think i need counseling he told me that my Iman( faith)was weak and to accept Allah’s qadar. To some that might seem a little harsh and at the time i thought so too,,, but then i remebered Allah will not burden his slave with more than they can handle Allahu Akbar I can say that i have been tested and surely by Allah’s will i have made it through, someone once asked me how did you over come all of this and go on to living a normal( my own version of normal) life i always say by Allah’s grace and mercy when i look back on were I’ve come from to now i truly feel that Allah has blessed me to get through it all alot of people say my gosh i would have had a nervous break down by now!So like i said before i will use this blog as my relief and share my life, not for pity or sympathy just to remind myself first and then others that with Allah and prayer and dua (supplications) Insha Allah you too can make it through. So again i plan to use this blog as my means of relief and let it all go,,,,, living with an alcoholic and drug addicted mother was the hardest thing in my childhood and really have carried over to my adulthood( cause she still drinking) i find my self still feeling the same way as if i was 6 or7 yrs old there are so many bad memories and good memories i will categories them here and later make blogs of each one of them insha Allah and i might add more to the list as my brain starts rewinding them all they are not in order.
*The Day Felicia Died
*stitches in my Knee
*oops baking soda on the Stove
*brother with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome
*Foster Homes
*oh how i love my dad so much
* being a Sickly child
*Father Rapes Daughter
* House being Raided
* The day the Quran came in the mail
*moving to BIG OLE NEW YORK
*Dear Naimah (Maxi)
*Islam Allahu Akbar Takbeer Allahu Akbar
* Being Married for the First time
* 9/11
* Back to Morocco
* Letter To Sidney
*Iowa
*Malian West African
*waking up finding my baby ,,,,,
*Dealing with the lost of my Son Fatoma RahimAllah
* SIDS ( Sudden Infant Death Syndrome)
*Accepting the qadar of Allah
*Philly
*More babies Insha Allah