I once told my husband after a death in our family that i think i need counseling he told me that my Iman( faith)was weak and to accept Allah’s qadar. To some that might seem a little harsh and at the time i thought so too,,, but then i remebered Allah will not burden his slave with more than they can handle Allahu Akbar I can say that i have been tested and surely by Allah’s will i have made it through, someone once asked me how did you over come all of this and go on to living a normal( my own version of normal) life i always say by Allah’s grace and mercy when i look back on were I’ve come from to now i truly feel that Allah has blessed me to get through it all alot of people say my gosh i would have had a nervous break down by now!So like i said before i will use this blog as my relief and share my life, not for pity or sympathy just to remind myself first and then others that with Allah and prayer and dua (supplications) Insha Allah you too can make it through. So again i plan to use this blog as my means of relief and let it all go,,,,, living with an alcoholic and drug addicted mother was the hardest thing in my childhood and really have carried over to my adulthood( cause she still drinking) i find my self still feeling the same way as if i was 6 or7 yrs old there are so many bad memories and good memories i will categories them here and later make blogs of each one of them insha Allah and i might add more to the list as my brain starts rewinding them all they are not in order.
*The Day Felicia Died
*stitches in my Knee
*oops baking soda on the Stove
*brother with Fetal Alcohol Syndrome
*Foster Homes
*oh how i love my dad so much
* being a Sickly child
*Father Rapes Daughter
* House being Raided
* The day the Quran came in the mail
*moving to BIG OLE NEW YORK
*Dear Naimah (Maxi)
*Islam Allahu Akbar Takbeer Allahu Akbar
* Being Married for the First time
* 9/11
* Back to Morocco
* Letter To Sidney
*Iowa
*Malian West African
*waking up finding my baby ,,,,,
*Dealing with the lost of my Son Fatoma RahimAllah
* SIDS ( Sudden Infant Death Syndrome)
*Accepting the qadar of Allah
*Philly
*More babies Insha Allah
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
The Day Felicia Died
This is blog is number 1 on my list :
My Mother had a friend named Felicia I’m not quite sure if she was a best friend to her back then but i know that she was a really close friend to my mother and when she died my mother was so hurt and sad i can’t quite remember how she died. I can remember this day as if it was today or yesterday i remember i was home alone as usual with my lil brother who has fetal alcohol syndrome i was like 6 or 7 and my brother was like one or two i remember my mother getting ready for the wake earlier in the day and she left and didn’t come home until late that evening my brother and i was in the bed sleep together and she came in the room and turned the lights on she was staggering all over the place and slurring her words crying and i heard her say that should have been her instead of Felicia and i was pretending i was sleep cause i knew if she knew i was woke she would get upset with me or him for some reason anything would set her off my brother really was sleep so she started calling my name telling me to get up and do something,,,,,, What i can’t recall so anyways after that i went back to bed and she is still talking and going on and getting frustrated about something i guess with her friend passing away and a mixture of alcohol so all of a sudden she was getting ready to turn the light off and leave the room and she sorta like slid down the wall and caught her balance oh a crow bar that was standing well leaning up against the wall and she just grabbed it and came to the bed where my brother and i was and just hit us with it for no reason thank Allah my brother was ok because i put my body sorta over him. I can’t really recall how many times she hit us all i can remember is the first hit and then the next day we all woke up and she carried on as if nothing ever happened that’s,,,,,,,,,, The Day Felicia Died.
My Mother had a friend named Felicia I’m not quite sure if she was a best friend to her back then but i know that she was a really close friend to my mother and when she died my mother was so hurt and sad i can’t quite remember how she died. I can remember this day as if it was today or yesterday i remember i was home alone as usual with my lil brother who has fetal alcohol syndrome i was like 6 or 7 and my brother was like one or two i remember my mother getting ready for the wake earlier in the day and she left and didn’t come home until late that evening my brother and i was in the bed sleep together and she came in the room and turned the lights on she was staggering all over the place and slurring her words crying and i heard her say that should have been her instead of Felicia and i was pretending i was sleep cause i knew if she knew i was woke she would get upset with me or him for some reason anything would set her off my brother really was sleep so she started calling my name telling me to get up and do something,,,,,, What i can’t recall so anyways after that i went back to bed and she is still talking and going on and getting frustrated about something i guess with her friend passing away and a mixture of alcohol so all of a sudden she was getting ready to turn the light off and leave the room and she sorta like slid down the wall and caught her balance oh a crow bar that was standing well leaning up against the wall and she just grabbed it and came to the bed where my brother and i was and just hit us with it for no reason thank Allah my brother was ok because i put my body sorta over him. I can’t really recall how many times she hit us all i can remember is the first hit and then the next day we all woke up and she carried on as if nothing ever happened that’s,,,,,,,,,, The Day Felicia Died.
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Who Is Umm Aslam ?
Who Is Umm Aslam?
Posted on January 12, 2008.
As Salaamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatulahi Wa Barakatu
Who is Umm Aslam? I am Muslim a mother and a wife Insha Allah i will be blogging about my life experiences good or bad and what i have learned from them so stay tuned.
Posted on January 12, 2008.
As Salaamu Alaikum Wa Rahmatulahi Wa Barakatu
Who is Umm Aslam? I am Muslim a mother and a wife Insha Allah i will be blogging about my life experiences good or bad and what i have learned from them so stay tuned.
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